Ode to Long Term Love.

10 years ago, after five years of courtship, ADD and I became husband and wife. This is my tribute to my long term love.

Lunar Eclipse in Sagitarius June 15, 2011

Subhanallah. It was a spectacular show. In all my 34 years of life, I have never witness a single lunar eclipse ever. It was truly the perfect ending to an overall perfect day. Eclipse is a new  full moon. Something tells me that I'll be looking forward to many good things to come. Inshaallah. :))

A Perfect Birthday

My birthday has come and gone. I was actually bracing myself for the worst but was pleasantly surprised to have had a very good birthday. Guess turning 34 is not so bad after all and with such a great start, the future seems very promising.

It is also my tenth anniversary. 10 whole years of being Mrs. ADD! Wow! But that's another story. :)

Throughout the day I was inundated with texts, phone calls and FB messages of wonderful birthday wishes. ADD and the kids were wonderful right till the end. They were all behaving beautifully and went out of their way to pamper me with as much TLC as I had ever received. ADD gave me a huge bouquet of roses (he knew I preferred lilies but could not for the life of him tell the florist the name of that flower as he had forgotten what it was called) and the kids made wonderful home made cards. Never saw that coming! lol

ADD told me to kick back and relax the entire day and took upon himself to feed and look after the kids the entire day. I got to nap not once but 3 times throughout the day. Over 2 hours each time too! I'm not sure if we could call that nap but whatever...I am a very happy camper. :P

In the evening he took us out to dinner at my favourite restaurant where the children had also behaved beautifully. After the kids was safely tucked into their beds and snoring away, I had some alone time to watch the longest lunar eclipse to date and what a spectacular show was that! A perfect ending to a perfect day.

I guess I got my birthday wish after all. I got time off and had enjoyed me. By being able to do so, I had enjoyed everything around me as well. I couldn't have wished for a more perfect birthday.

I feel so blessed. :))

Birthday Blues

In four days, it'll be my birthday. My 34th birthday. 6 years away from the big 4-0! OMG! I feel practically ancient. I don't know if it's just PMS (Aunt Flo is due for a visit in a weeks time) or depression but I feel downright miserable these past few days. Urgh. Turning 34 doesn't seem so appealing after all.

I recall my special day during my childhood. It was exactly that and even more. I was super special just for that day. I'd be spoiled, pampered and treated like a queen. My parents
gave me the very best VIP treatment a child could possibly have. But as the years passed my VIP status has been mercilessly downgraded. However, I never stopped hoping to get a taste of the VIP treatment I had back then when I was wee one each passing year only to be disappointed year after year. To make matters worst, I had the brilliant idea to get married on my birthday, hoping that the double celebration would even out things. Ding! Big mistake. Big. Huge. Now instead of being disappointed,  now I get double the disappointment.

ADD comes from a family that has never acknowledge birthdays. It was truly a shock to my system. Ever the optimistic, I thought I could change all that. I was wrong again. You can't teach an old dog new tricks especially when it's an obnoxious, stubborn, insensitive dog.

My late father always made a big deal over birthdays. He put it in my head that you must make an effort. I remember one of my mom's birthday. My dad had made such an effort to provide her that special VVIP treatment. Flowers at work. Surprise shopping spree at lunch and a romantic dinner, just the 2 of them. I can't fault my late father though, it has always been in his nature to be the perfect Prince Charming. I truly believe that in this day and age, man like him are far and few.

When I was little, it was a big deal to do something special for the family member on their birthday. We'd make a card, a gift, buy stuff if we could afford to but most importantly, that day we let them get off with anything even murder. ;)

I try to teach the kids the same as what I was taught when it comes to birthdays, but they obviously take after their dad. If their dad is that way, what are the chances I could make them any different? I guess they unknowingly learn by example.

Anyway, knowing what to expect when I'm expecting (my birthday that is), I've decided to ignore my birthday this year. It's also my 10 year anniversary which like every other year, I'll just make a little gesture and expect nothing in return. I'm planning to switch off my phone, hide in the house and just drown in my  misery.

It's been awhile (8-10 years) since I had made a wishlist for my birthday and expect to get anything on the list. Just for the fun of it, for the sake of my own amusement, I think this year I'd like to think of 10 things I would like to receive on my special day although chances are slim to none that I will get it. So here goes;

1. A gorgeous canvas quilt Dior bag in beige or red.
2. A white Mahima LV handbag worth AED 11k. (Eh? The Dior bag is much cheaper so why did I put it as number 1? Must be that middle child thing/insecure person in me. )
3. A 2 carat diamond ring. Diamond's a girl 's best friend..and I have none. (And my teeny, tiny diamond wedding ring doesn't count as you can hardly see the diamond.)
4. A nice chunky solid gold necklace and bracelet! I think I'm at the age where I could actually carry it off! ;)
5. AED50 000 cash. (Dunno why 50...but I've always liked the number 5 and 5k seems minuscule.) :P
6. A domestic helper. If it was my old helper, even better! I really do miss her. :(
7. ADD and kids organize something special for me like a surprise party ( and I won't have to clean afterwards as well!)
8. My kids would make me something heartfelt and surprise me with it.
9. I'd be mommy and wifey free for exactly 24 hours. No worries about chores, food, kids, husband.
10. Turn 18 again and be just me.

That's it. I did it. Finally, my very own wish list. Now looking at my wish list, deep in my heart, I think the ones I would like the most are the ones that are impossible to achieve. *Sigh* I miss being me. I haven't been me for so long that I'm actually afraid to become me again. Somewhere along those 34 years, I've lost myself. I've lost that hopeful thoughts of being Queen for a day. I'm resigned to the fact that I'll never be Queen again, ever.

I think I'll hide out on my birthday this year, switch off mobile and just stay clear from the general public. *Groan*. Depressing thoughts again. :(

Wondershare Photo Montage

I've just purchased this really cool photo montage software called Wondershare and I absolutely love, love, love it! It's $69 but worth every single cent spent. Now I find myself practically glued to the PC trying to photo montage everything! Here's my test montage of my kids. Aaah...nothing like the bliss of a new toy! :))

MISSING: Black, medium sized OSN Remote.

The TV remote has gone AWOL. Last seen when Baby H snatched it away from me 2 nights ago and ran off with it. Too bad my 2 year old has the memory of a goldfish. I keep asking where she may have put it and she would stare at me, give me a serious look and offer me one of her toys or milk instead. *Sigh*.

Tried doing the whole manually changing of channels method but found it very, very cumbersome. I have thunder thighs so taking that 6 steps towards the TV from my couch would be like dragging tonnes of lead, so obviously that's not working out.

The fact is, I've been spoiled rotten by technology. Gosh, what was life like before the wonderful invention of remote or as Dearest S would say 'in the olden days'? DH said not to make a big deal over the missing remote and just suck it in and do it manually. He said if I could have done it before, surely I could do it now. This coming from a man who doesn't have the slightest interest towards watching TV. Doesn't he realize that his stay at home wife is also a professional couch potato? Besides, as far as I could recall, the last time I had to change the channels manually was over 25 years ago and at that time we only had 3 channels! In those days, I was considered very lucky to have 3 channels because I was a city dweller. The rest of the country was stuck with only 2 channels. 3 channels I could handle manually but over 3000 channels??? Only a Saint would have the patience to cope with manually scrolling 3000 channels and I ain't no Saint.

I'm seriously considering either filing a police report over my missing remote or changing my cable provider just so I'll get a new decoder with a new remote. I think TV remote control makers seriously consider inventing a remote that comes with a beeper. That would be absolutely awesome! It'll revolutionize everyone's whole TV watching experience. However, with my track record I'd probably lose the beeper too. Maybe they could do a call center that we could call everytime the remote goes missing and they could activate an alarm so we may be able to find it! Wow! That's a fantastic idea!

I'm going bonkers now. I so need my remote.